Saturday, December 31, 2011
Skyrim - metaphor for life
I received Skyrim for Christmas. While I like fantasy literature, I've never been a big fan of fantasy role playing games, but I like this game because it is so much like life - it is open ended and not scripted; its progress depends on the choices you make. Skyrim looks to be an interesting gaming experience.
Like life.
This is a game with a major crisis- dragons are invading the land. And you find yourself in a politically divided environment and are asked to take sides. You can choose the noble road and make ethical decisions. You can play as a thief. You can even play as an assassin and murder. There are skills and talents you are born with, some that you can learn, all that you can develop but like life you must chose which ones to focus on. You can play the game and become a great character, a hero, or you can avoid the main quest completely and only play the side line quests. You can focus on becoming rich and buying lots of houses and you can focus on serving the need of the community by tackling the crisis.
Like life.
When we enter the world of adult life we find ourselves with lots of choices to consider. We have a life to build, a character to develop. We are all talented at something, usually more than one something. Even those of us who have struggled through school, whose life experience as a teen was not that great, who people would describe as not having much going for us, do have something going for us. Every human being is gifted. We are not all good at everything, but everyone is good at something. It may be mostly potential, but it is there.
As we stand on the landscape of our life looking at the world around us waiting to be discovered we realize that in the unknown there is an element of risk and danger. Will we step forward into the world with courage or will we be timid? Will we go out looking for the opportunities and the treasures for the world is full of them? Or will we stick to the well traveled roads and the path of mediocrity?
As we progress through life, it won't take long to realize there are many problems and crises in the world around us that we can become involved in. In Skyrim you can learn a spell that will heal others. (And yourself). It is a valuable lifeskill to learn how to heal from wounds both physical but more often of the heart and soul for life has a way of wounding us, sometimes at our core. But there are those who develop the skills to reach out and heal the hurting around us both in body and in spirit. That is a noble life road.
And like the game, you can choose to play as a very noble person, or you can become a very bad person or something in between. It is one thing to be a thief and make your way sneaking, taking advantage of others, and stealing anything you can. But in Skyrim, even the noble person can take advantage and pocket a stolen trinket or two when people aren't looking without getting in trouble with authorities. Like life. But unlike the game, when you steal or take advantage of another person it is not just an electronic avatar that will respawn fully whole later. When we take from others we diminish them; we hurt them.
Will we play the game of life in such a way that we add to life or diminish it?
And what shall we add? Shall we focus on treasures and houses for one can ignore the greater quest of Skyrim and focus on looting ancient halls and accumulating gold to purchase houses and jewelry and clothing? In our own lives which will dominate our time and energy, our focus? Will we focus on personal riches or will we utilize the things of the world as tools to enrich life and not only our own? Will we own the temporary things of the world and utilize them to enhance lives or will the things of the world own our temporary lives and consume our days upon this world?
And the world we find ourselves spawned into is a world in peril. It is filled with glories to be discovered but some fairly rough places too. It is filled with places where people are dangerous. There are real life monsters waiting to consume other out there. There are factions trying to buy your allegiance for their own gain. Will you become a pawn in someone else's game of life or will you think for yourself and make your choices, choose your friends, and determine your allegiances based on life enhancing values? Even in my middle years, half-way through my game of life, I find these questions worth pondering and reviewing. Perhaps I need some course corrections.
What sort of character will we become? Have we become? What course do we choose now?
Will we dive into the deepest challenges of life where the greatest risk is, the greatest effort required, but where we are called to become the noble hero? Or will we stick to the side games - the safe areas - but the mediocre parts.
But finally we realize too that a video game is unlike life in that in the game every person who plays can become "the hero", the savior of the world. In Skyrim an ordinary person happens to be born with a talent that in the midst of this crisis can lead him or her to become such a savior.
Some people are a bit more gifted in some areas than others. Sometimes you see someone who is a master, who naturally gifted has developed that gift to extraordinary levels. Most people are on similar skill levels to others. And life situations impact our choices, the scope of our ability to make impact. Some people find themselves due to forces beyond their control (and sometimes due to constructing a path) at the center of influence points in life and able to rise to positions of great influence. The story of President Obama is such an example. Or Hillary Clinton or George Bush.
Almost everyone will never be president. But I believe that there are many people out there who are gifted and if given the opportunities could have been as good as or indeed better in their service than those who have come before. We are limited to the choices the game of life hands us, but looking at great people we realize that there is an element for shaping our own path and destiny. When we strike out with purpose, courage, and informed decisions we can shape our own destiny.
And just maybe you will find yourself in a place where for another person, another group, who knows maybe a nation - you could be a hero for a danger has arisen for which you are gifted. But to become the hero, to help others, will entail personal sacrifice, a choice to develop your character and your skills to tackle the problem, a choice to devote yourself to the service of others.
The world is full of problems. If we look we find that we have talents inside us waiting to be developed and applied to help make life better for ourselves and those we live with.
But we don't have to be president to have a profound influence for the good or for the evil on the world around us. Especially in our zone of play. What we do, who we are, how we interact with others - it shapes not only our life but the lives of others.
How shall we play? Will we play small or large? Will we spectate? Or will we take the risk, dedicate the effort, and for someone become the hero?
Friday, December 16, 2011
Wednesday, December 07, 2011
Friday, November 18, 2011
Change: Re-formation
One of the many things I admire about the Reformer Martin Luther was his resilience. Early in the Reformation he didn't have much to hang his hat on for the sake of his personal security. Indeed, his own core beliefs were changing so fast that I suspect one reason he was such a prolific writer was it helped him to make sense of them and keep them centered on the truth of Scripture. He had powerful enemies in the Pope and other leaders of the Roman Catholic church whose main approach to dealing with his challenge being to call for his life. Marriage brought a great many other changes to Luther and when his daughter died it broke his heart. But he remained unwavering through his life to what was right and good and to living.
There is always change. The ancient pre-Socratic philosophy Heraclitus in discussing the relationship of permanence (which we all crave) and change suggested we "cannot step in the same river twice". Time flows. The world changes. We change.
As we grow older there is much change we cannot control but there is also much that we can influence. For example as our bodies grow older what that means can be heavily influenced by choices in diet and exercise. Our minds as well. We can sit and just let how we approach life be largely out of years of habit. Or we can from time to time engage why we are doing what we are doing and what we hold dear and reassess our values, beliefs, and goals to see if perhaps they are in need of a re-formation.
Some of us resist changing our beliefs because it sounds too much like the radical liberal clarion call that traditional values are enslaving and change that abandons the past is necessarily liberating and progress. But as Luther showed us, sometimes reaching back to the foundation can help us get our life (and sometimes our society) back on a better course.
There are some changes that change us. They come unexpectedly. We fall in love. We loose a loved one. We are diagnosed with an illness. We are attacked by an enemy. Our situation alters in a substantial way.
Such change, when associated with loss or threat, can illicit some powerful negative emotions. It is telling that of the four major emotions (mad, sad, scared, glad) three of them are negative. Change can make us fearful, sad and depressed, and even angry. Emotions can be powerful motivators in our lives for actions which bring on further change, not all of them good. I believe it wise when we become conscious of a major change in our lives that find us with these powerful emotions, that such is a time at the beginning of our response to not just put our feelings into it, but to think about our feelings, to think about our new situation, and to think about where we want the situation to go.
I find in these situations reaching back to my core - to my foundational beliefs - helps me to sustain what is important and vital in the midst of changes.
It can be easy to drift from our core beliefs and identity as strange as that might sound. By Ortega Gassett tells us, "I am myself and my circumstances." Circumstances go a long way in making up the stuff of our lives and when we have lived in a set of circumstances long enough, perhaps some aspects of who we are have not been utilized or were set aside for a time and now out of habit they have grown rather dusty.
I will confess that in Wittenberg I began to think of how my Lutheran core beliefs had grown just a bit dusty in my almost 7 years as a military chaplain. While it is a good thing that I've added many new tools to my "toolbox" to care for folks and I work in a wonderful diverse environment, it was good to be reminded of the hope that is found at the heart of the Reformation and that this hope is central to my life: Salvation by faith alone, as declared in Scripture alone, received as a free gift of grace alone, because of what Christ alone has done in his death and resurrection. I had began to think of myself as an "Air Force Chaplain" which I am and hopefully will remain for I love this job. But I am reminded that I am also a Lutheran pastor and my job is not just a job - it is a calling. When you are not all that special and you are surrounded by some very talented and dedicated folks it is easy to forget that one is called to a special task, not because of being better or superior. But God gives us all a vocation because He creates us all with unique gifts and talents and calls us to place those in service to one another and just to ourselves.
These past few weeks have been time of reflection, re-formation. Touching my roots. Thinking of my present. Preparing for my future. Taking stock. Being thankful for what remains and aware that all things change and some of them should be relished while they are present.
Saturday, September 24, 2011
A Rose is Fallen
When no heart aches shall come,
No more clouds in the sky,
No more tears to dim the eye,
All is peace forever more,
On that happy golden shore,
What a day, glorious day that will be.
What a day that will be,
When my Jesus I shall see,
And I look upon His face,
The One who saved me by His grace;
When He takes me by the hand,
And leads me through the Promised Land,
What a day, glorious day that will be.
There'll be no sorrow there,
No more burdens to bear,
No more sickness, no pain,
No more parting over there;
And forever I will be,
With the One who died for me,
What a day, glorious day that will be.
What a day that will be,
When my Jesus I shall see,
And I look upon His face,
The One who saved me by His grace;
When He takes me by the hand,
And leads me through the Promised Land,
What a day, glorious day that will be
Friday, September 16, 2011
Eleven Bells Nine Petitions, A Prayer for September 11
Sunday, September 11, 2011
Invocation
September 11, 2011
Saturday, September 10, 2011
Benediction
Sept 11 Remembrance Ceremony, RAF Molesworth
9 SEP 2011
Monday, August 01, 2011
Ghosts
In some ways it was a week of communing with ghosts. I spent an afternoon visiting my father's grave in Tazewell Virginia and my great grandfather's grave in Richlands. It was haunting to walk the grounds and streets where so many of my relatives lived and where I as a child had visited often -only now all that remains are the hallowed grounds of family graves.
Perhaps that is why as I drove around my old haunts amongst the rolling hills of East Tennessee with memories flowing through my mind, I felt as a ghost visting old familiar places but where life has moved on and is only now a shadow of what once was. I saw only one person that I knew from my past other than my family, an assistant manager at Kmart who helped me find a job once many years ago.
But life does move on and we have new additions to our family including a most beautiful great niece who brought a lot of light to our family gathering. It may the last time that my brother and I are together with our mother as her health is failing. I bid farewell to her this morning with focus as it may very well be the last time I see her in this world. But she has surprised me before fighting back from great weakness. While her body is frail, she has always had a depth of stubborn resistence to the realities of life and a strong spirit.
I have made it a resolution that I shall do all I legally can do to hinder the cigarette industry that directly contributed to the death of my father and has now robbed the vitality from my mother to the point that she and her life is only a shell of what once was.
Even the community has changed and in some ways is only a shadow of what once was. The city of Kingsport has gobbled up the surrounding county neighborhoods filling their coffers with new taxes and their schools with new bodies. Band camp was starting this morning at my old high school so I stopped for a minute to watch. Twenty-five years ago we fielded 350 people in our band. Today I counted 25. And they looked so young.
In the midst of so much change I am amazed at home much the community has remained the same. Homes look much the same. The Reedy Creek park has changed little and a run or walk there continues to be therapy for the soul. (Though I did see a wild black ferrit for the first time). I logged 35 miles on that trail this week and made lots of friends from the community of ducks that reside there thanks to some old bread. The ridge lines remain the same though there seemed to be more timber in the fields than in the past. Mom's neighbors remain the same - though bit more gray around the ages - so I fit right in.
Monday, May 02, 2011
A Significant Death
I remember where I was and what I was doing that fateful Tuesday morning Sept 11, 2001. I remember the memorial service we held that night at Trinity Lutheran Church in Cincinnati. I soon started to research coming into the Air Force as a chaplain but the course of my ministry would postpone that decision until 2005. But this "long war", this "global war on terror" was on my mind and in the end moved me to join - to become part of the line to defend our nation from Osama and his ilk, indeed to defend justice and freedom.
Part of me wonders why it took so long to bring justice to Osama. Part of me wonders if it might have been wiser to capture him and bring him to justice in a public court of law. I read a comment by someone that now we can say "mission accomplished". But this long war is far more complex than just the life or death of this one man. He was this war's catalyst but it has grown much bigger than him, and in my opinion, had already grown much larger and beyond him.
I think it may not have been wise to kill him to early. Like a hydra, to make a martyr of him in the early days could have created many more impassioned leaders and a much bigger monster to slay. President Bush and our military went for the body, not the head. For myself the mission was accomplished every single day there was not a terror attack on the United States. Every single threat which was discovered and stopped was mission accomplished.
Yes the battle in Afghanistan rages, but think of it -- those who used Afghanistan as a harbor were so quickly devestated and unable to strike our nation again. What harm was Osama able to do after we moved to action in the fall of 2001? It has been a long road. One where pundits debate wisdom and morality. But what do we see. Iraq on its way to being a free nation - still has its problems -but no longer a threat to her neighbors nor under the thumb of a dictator. We see mass popular movements toward freedom and justice coming to birth.
Yes it is messy and the war rages on for it is more than just seeking the head of one man or stopping the heart of one man. This war is more about winning the hearts and heads of our entire human race. Liberty for all. Justice for all. Peace for all. A tall order. For there are still those out there moved by hatred. A shooting killing Air Force personnel in Germany. Another in Afghanistan. Families grieve.
I find it hard to celebrate a death - for I grieve at the necessity that exists within humanity that it is necessary to inflict death to preserve life. But in this case it was just.
I find it hard to celebrate this death for I doubt it will go far in changing hearts and minds. We isolated his influence and ability to strike our nation years ago. Osama had been isolated and locked down in his little compound limited to issuing a few statements now and then - the real battle leaders of terror had moved on. So I doubt this will change the reality of this war very much - for it has already moved far beyond Osama bin Laden.
I do fear that if we think the war is over because the life of Osama bin Laden is over and we quit - he may have given the final thing he could to advance his cause - turning himself into a martyr.
But perhaps the time has come to remove this symbol of where it started - now that new things are in the works and people in the Middle East are themselves calling for justice and freedom.
Time will tell.
I've seen this war up close and personal. I've been fired upon in Iraq as rockets pounded our base. I've held the hands of wounded and carried the dead. I've buried our dead in the hallowed sanctuary that is Arlington when they were killed by terrorists. I've walked the sacred ground where victims from the Pentagon rest. I've walked the sacred ground in Pennsylvania where the first American heroes gave their lives to prevent what might have been an attack on the White House or the Capitol Building. I've counseled those who had to deal with the loss of friends and comrades. I've counseled couples whose marriages were strained by repeated deployments. I've blessed those going out of the wire into harms way and given thanks when they safely returned. These young men and women are the truest of heroes, the truest of servants, for in the end it is their blood that pays the price for liberty and by their wounds of body and soul is justice preserved.
It is a long war. It suspect it is far from done. Every day justice stands and freedom endures is "mission accomplished".